Kim's Fitness and Nutrition

I am continually impressed with the willpower of the Ego - that part of our mind that really seems to be extraordinarily resistant to change. I know my Ego clings to the "familiar" at all costs. It doesn't care how uncomfortable, even painful, things can get ... it wants to stay where things are predictable. Time and experience have taught me that risk and change are good things, and I need not be afraid of them. However, I must wrangle with my Ego every time. Feeling happy, joyous and free have taken precedence over staying in a safe place, being justified or needing to be right. Remaining in that yucky feeling place is almost unbearable these days. Today, I know that is my guidance making me aware that I am moving out of alignment and away from who I am and who I am becoming.

I have been asked to define "fitness" by many different people who obviously walk many different paths. My response when I was a much younger trainer was rather textbook and clinical. Over the years, I have come to realize that fitness is as individual as each and every one of us is. What a bank teller considers being fit is not going to look anything like what a tri- athlete considers being fit.

This is without a doubt the most difficult concept for me to embody. I can go along for a while and do pretty well, and then suddenly, I will find myself stewing. Gratefully, the resentments have become less and less significant and are easier to release once I become aware of them. It is an ongoing process, I have decided, that I will be forever working on, and that's okay. What is very reassuring to me is that with each resentment that I can identify and let go of, I feel more free. Freedom is my personal number one priority, and so that is a huge incentive for me. When I think about freedom, the feelings of joy, excitement and openness are almost overwhelming. Freedom is one of the most basic, fundamental and innate characteristics that we all are born with. Many of us have it programmed, beaten or manipulated out of us at a very young age, however. It then takes whatever time it takes to wake back up, and remember that being free is who we are.

You may have noticed that just when you think you have managed to work through an issue or get over a particular stumbling block, you suddenly find yourself dealing with a whole new facet of the same issue. This likens to peeling an onion, and frankly, it is never ending. On one hand, that can serve to be somewhat a relief, but on the other hand, it can seem rather daunting. We are eternal beings that come and go, and come and go endlessly. With each incarnation, we bring a greater conscious ... at least that is my hope. The up side to this is that you can never really get it wrong, because you can never ever get it done. That puts a nice new perspective on failures and so-called mistakes. I now like to think of these things as learning experiences and opportunities to grow and evolve more. Which, in fact, they are.